Can you say "Fed up"???

I can say it! Loudly too! I think I have been nothing but sick since I got home from the retreat. It is ridiculous. I've not been sick like this in 20 years! First I had the flu, which I blogged about. Then came the sinus congestion, runny nose, bronchial cough ... which I expected since the flu likes to do that. But now ... please give me a break.

The day after Easter I woke up, all was well. I took my son to school, all was well. I got home, did a few things, and started getting my scrap stuff ready for the Monday night crop ... all was still well. Then, as I stood at my scrap table, my left ear itched, so, I scratched it. Not inside or anything like that. Just put my index finger on the little cartlidge thingy over the ear canal and rubber back and forth twice. Now, we all do this right? Oh .... My .... God ...... The pain that shot through my ear was excrutiating. I could have fallen over, it was horrible. And guess what? It only got worse. As the day rocked on, it got worse and worse until at 2:00, I called the Dr. and headed over there. So, now I'm told I have an ear infection. FROM WHAT??? There is no fluid in my ear, but it is red and swollen.

Now mind you, this was Monday ... today is Thursday. This past week has found me sleeping on the sofe, drugged up on Lortab, eating nothing but crackers and today, I had a cup of soup. I can't eat, I have to sleep sitting up, I have to have drops in my ear twice a day, huge horse pills they tell me are antibiotics and I'm fed up. Do you know why? BECAUSE IT ISN'T BETTER!!!! I'm still in pain, unless I'm drugged. I can't hear anything out of it except some mind warping white noise (you know, like when your TV is off station) and loud noises seem to radiate through there. I'm cranky, I've lost weight, in addition to the weight I lost with the flu and generally, I feel like a useless lump of burden. I can't do anything without getting dizzy and/or nauseaus. I want to cry but you know what would happen then? That's right! Stuffed up nose! Can't blow it.

I know it seems petty when there are so many people out there in worse shape than I am, but I'm frustrated and I'm venting. Hopefully I'll be able to get back to normal soon. Please throw some prayer this way ... I need it.

Thanks for letting me vent! I needed it!

Big hugs!!!1